About Me

I don’t really like these about me things because I don’t really know what to say.  So I have decided to do a list of things about me.  It might grow into a “100 things about me” but for now I will just start at 1….

1)  I am very shy and awkward and don’t always talk on public forums. I often don’t comment on blogs and status’ because I never know if it is appropriate or if I am being too forward.

2) Because of this I am often perceived as bitchy or snobbish.  In reality I am just shy!

3)  I want people to like me and can spend oodles of time wondering if I have annoyed or upset someone by something I might have said.

4)  I love my husband very very much.  The kind of love that hurts physically when he is not around.  I always heard that and never knew what ‘they’ meant until I met my husband.  That is how I knew he was the one….

5) If you are my friend I will do anything for you.  Often to my own detriment.  I have VERY few people in my life who will do the same for me.

6)  I am very loyal to people close to me but if you hurt or betray me I can’t be held accountable for my actions.

7)  I have to eat with cutlery that matches.

8 )  I can’t mix my dessert.  If there is fruit salad and ice cream I have to eat it separately. Jelly and custard same thing.

9)  I love animals and have many pets.  I let them get away with so much because I feel bad after just raising my voice.  As a reward, they love me unconditionally.

10) I miss my mom more than words can say.  Time does not make it better.  Everything I experience reminds me that I was cheated out of sharing that with my mother.  She was my best friend and biggest supporter.

11) I some times feel unworthy to be involved in the Teen Mom Support Group.  I feel like I have no value to add because I am not a mother but I have the passion and the desire to do something.  It is an eternal internal struggle to make sure I don’t let those feelings win because I CAN and I DO make a difference.

12) I have a strong desire to be a mom.  I feel like that is something I am meant to do.  I can’t see my life without children and will often spend days being sad about not being a mom.  Always a work in progress.

13) I love my brother very much.  Also his wife and my nephew.  They are very important to me and I am always sorry that I don’t get to see them more often.  I wish I was closer to my sister-in-law but she has a sister already.  It is what it is.

14) I hate struggling with stuff that others find easy or simple.  I feel dumb.  If I do finally manage to get it right I feel really proud.

15) Because of this I tend to try lots of different things and if I feel that I am not *as good* at it I will generally not do it often.  I suck at scrapbooking and have tons of stuff that I don’t use.  Mostly because I feel I have nothing to scrap book about.  :/

16)  I am not very good with words.  Written word that is.  Sometimes something will sound much better in my head than it does when I write it down.  I have scrapped many a blog post because I felt it wasn’t ‘good enough’.

17) I am learning that not everything has to be ‘good enough’ for someone else.  If it’s true and real then it is good enough for me.

18) I like pink – ALOT!

19) I hardly ever wear make-up.  I should but my skin takes strain and I don’t think going to the shop qualifies as a good reason.  I wish it wasn’t so but it is what it is.

20) I like to say “it is what it is” often